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(Parts of this article are from Rescuing Wayward Children. Click to learn more.)

Some years ago, I had a falling out with a family member. I don’t remember the issue now. (Isn’t it amazing how we can remember a grudge while failing to remember the particulars that led to the grudge?) We said things to each other that were hurtful, so hurtful, in fact, that the relationship seemed irreparably broken with few pieces left to pick up and start over.

We stomped out of each other’s lives forever. I wouldn’t forgive him; I couldn’t forgive him…but I had to forgive him.

My conscience began to burn, but I doused it with pride. I wasn’t going to give in. After all, it was his fault, wasn’t it? Family members made attempts to mediate, but I stubbornly held onto my anger. Have you ever observed that you have to feed anger or it will die? I fed my anger by reliving the event, each time inflating his actions and diminishing mine.

With each retelling, I became more of a saint and he became a worse sinner. Looking back, I realize that I became a good storyteller during that period of time. I became so adept at storytelling that I could create any reality that I desired. I could even manage to convince myself to believe my story, despite the fact that much of it wasn’t true.

Huckleberry Finn observed that you can’t live a lie, but for over a year, I tried my best to live a lie. I am grateful that the Holy Ghost doesn’t give up as easily as I do. He quietly continued to nag me to see things as they really are and let go of my pride. I resisted. One of my strategies was to try to ignore the incident, as if it might evaporate. You know, out of sight, out of mind. But that didn’t work any better than trying to live a lie.

Finally, I realized that I had to do something or I would never feel relief. But I didn’t know what to do. That was when the Holy Ghost opened a door of opportunity.

It was the Christmas season, the supposed time of goodwill toward men. I was driving through town, when whom did I see driving in the opposite direction? He didn’t see me, but I saw him, and suddenly I knew what I had to do. I swallowed my pride, drove to a music store, purchased a CD of music that he enjoyed and sent it to him with a Christmas greeting. I didn’t apologize or explain anything. I just sent him the CD with a sincere sentiment of my love.

A few days later, I received a letter in the mail. It contained no apology, just gratitude and an expression of affection. And just like that, the entire messy episode was over. We were brothers again. No more hate, no more grudge. With one simple act of reconciliation, I was liberated. The Lord had freed me from a satanic enemy that had been bent on occupying my thoughts, retarding my spiritual growth, and destroying my soul. Forgiveness was my angel of deliverance.

The Prophet Job exemplified Forgiveness

Job’s life is a powerful and interesting lesson on exemplifying forgiveness. Job was an ancient priest and judge, who was highly respected and very wealthy. He was doing everything right when suddenly everything went wrong. In an instant, he lost his seven sons and three daughters. Then he lost his wealth and his health. When he was cast from his home to take up residence near the city’s refuse pile, he was separated from his wife-possibly one of his hardest trials.

Then three of his friends (and later a fourth) came to comfort him. They were so astonished at his condition and appearance that they could not utter a word, but rather sat with him in silence for seven days, “for they saw that his grief was very great.”_

At that point, the unimaginable happened: Job’s friends turned against him and accused him of sin. They imagined that nothing short of misdeeds and flaws in his character could produce such misery. Surely, they said, Job was now reaping the reward for his poor choices and bad conduct. Of course, Job was not a sinner “deserving” of his trials.

Do we sometimes feel like Job when others jump to judgment and harshly criticize us? Or are we quick to harshly judge ourselves when we yield to temptations or make mistakes? In either case, we become our own worst enemies, much like Job’s judgmental friends, who were willing to accuse Job while he was suffering.

Amazingly, despite all the false accusations and abuse, Job maintained his integrity. He knew that sin was not the cause of his affliction. He knew the Lord well enough to know that he was right before him. If escaping his circumstance were as easy as admitting to a mistake, Job would have gladly done so. But he had received no such divine communication, so he was duty-bound to maintain his integrity and wait for the Lord to deliver him and give him further instructions.

The Final Trial of Job

In the end, the Lord vindicated Job by chastising Job’s friends. Speaking to one of them, Eliphaz, the Lord said,

My wrath is kindled against thee, and against thy two friends: for ye have not spoken of me the thing that is right, as my servant Job hath.” Then, in an extraordinary gesture to reach out to the friends and invite them to repent (and the result would become Job’s ultimate test), the Lord commanded Eliphaz and the friends, “Therefore take unto you now seven bullocks and seven rams, and go to my servant Job, and offer up for yourselves a burnt offering; and my servant Job shall pray for you: for him will I accept: lest I deal with you after your folly. _

The final trial of Job was forgiveness!

After all that had happened to him, after all the abuse, could Job now forgive and pray for his friends? Yes! And the result was astounding: “And the Lord turned the captivity of Job, when he prayed for his friends: also the Lord gave Job twice as much as he had before.”_

Through the powerful act of forgiveness, Job’s “captivity” was turned; through the powerful act of forgiveness, Job was able to rescue and reclaim his friends; and through the powerful act of forgiveness, the Lord restored to Job twice as much as he had had before.

Forgiveness-Coming Near to Perfection

At some point, and perhaps at many points along the way, we will have to forgive ourselves and judgmental people. If we are able to forgive them sincerely, we will come “near to perfection,”_ said Spencer W.

Kimball.

Our reward for having made this sacrifice-forgiveness at least requires the sacrifice of pride-will be much more than what was required of us in order to forgive: twice as much, in the case of Job, and even more in other cases.

In 1833, when the desperately impoverished, suffering Mormons were driven from their Missouri homes in the dead of winter, the Lord told them through their prophet-leader, Joseph Smith to seek the gift of forgiveness and expect divine compensation: “And again, if your enemy shall smite you the second time, and you revile not against your enemy, and bear it patiently, your reward shall be an hundredfold.”_

The “hundredfold” reward comes from our having learned something about becoming a little more like God.

Struggling to comprehend the boundaries of forgiveness, Peter asked Jesus, “Lord, how oft shall my brother sin against me, and I forgive him? till seven times? Jesus saith unto him, I say not unto thee, Until seven times: but, Until seventy times seven.”_ That is, if our aim is to take Jesus as our Exemplar, we must learn to forgive without limitation.

To emphasize this point, Jesus taught a parable that reveals something we must learn in order to become like Him-the capacity and desire to forgive endlessly, even when others’ sins are severe and enormous:

       Therefore is the kingdom of heaven likened unto a certain king, which would take account of his servants.

       And when he had begun to reckon, one was brought unto him, which owed him ten thousand talents.

       But forasmuch as he had not to pay, his lord commanded him to be sold, and his wife, and children, and all that he had, and payment to be made.

       The servant therefore fell down, and worshipped him, saying, Lord, have patience with me, and I will pay thee all.

       Then the lord of that servant was moved with compassion, and loosed him, and forgave him the debt._

We are like these servants of the King, who will one day take an account of us. Our debt to sin might appear as massive as “ten thousands talents.” We simply could never pay it. Clearly, the demands of justice are unbearable. Consequently and of necessity, we will plead with the King for mercy and forgiveness. Because the King is compassionate, He will be willing to loose us from our burden and forgive our debt, upon our efforts to repent.

Later in the parable, we learn that the forgiven servant would not forgive someone who owed him a tiny amount. The King learned of his hypocrisy and condemned him for it. Likewise, if the Lord freely forgives us and we do not extend the same courtesy to our debtors, we will kindle the wrath of the King, who, as the parable warns, will deliver us to the tormentors until we pay all that was originally due._

Our casually forgiving someone will not suffice; we must do so from our heart, the most sensitive and tender part of our soul. We cannot truly forgive and hold something back. If we are not willing to do this, we commit the “greater sin.”_

Forgiveness–One of the Greatest Tests of Discipleship

Because the gift of forgiveness defines Jesus, and because we must develop this trait to become more like Him, He gives us multiple opportunities to learn to forgive in this life. Forgiveness is one of the greatest tests of discipleship. Being willing to forgive speaks to our desire to become more and more like Christ, for by forgiving we lay the groundwork for the sinner’s redemption.

The person who is the most Christlike will seek to redeem and reclaim while the person who is more like Satan will seek to captivate and destroy. One reason that we withhold forgiveness is to hold the sinner in a form of spiritual bondage. That is a reason why non-forgiveness is such a serious sin. We simply cannot claim to be Christlike and do the work of Satan on any level.

On the other hand, sincere forgiveness closes the door on Satan, who would use the unsettled issue to destroy our souls. Therefore, for the sake of our souls and the souls of all others who sin or judge harshly, we must seek and develop the gift of forgiveness. And we start the process by forgiving ourselves. There is freedom; there is peace; there is charity; there is reconciliation with others and with God.

Perhaps, like Job, our final trial before deliverance comes is forgiveness.

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