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A few years ago I stayed with an old college friend in a condo they owned on Seabrook Island. I arrived late afternoon and was thrilled to see that the back patio gave me a perfect view of the ocean! I was able to watch the sun set and a big yellow moon rise to enchant the entire seascape. The next morning I awoke just before dawn and couldn’t go back to sleep. I crept quietly out of bed and stole out the back door where I could watch the sun rise over the ocean. The dark sky had begun to lighten and thin, in anticipation of the dawn. The moon was still visible, but fading. Silhouettes became etched with more and more detail as the light increased.
I watched in wonder as the clouds on the horizon took on an ever-increasing rosy hue. Suddenly the top arch of the sun leapt up above the water, bright, glowing, rosy orange. The sun grew steadily to become a flaming ball that transformed the sky and sea with rays of radiant light. The rosy orange faded into a glowing border as the main body of the sun shone a more and more brilliant yellow. The pink under the clouds burnt away to gray as the sun climbed higher in the sky. The glow around the sun grew increasingly bright and white; the light changed the ocean landscape from a mysterious blur to clear and crisp beauty.
I have kept that sunrise filed in the archives of my memory for easy access when I need assurance that no matter how dark the night, the dawn always comes. I had a relative die tragically a few days ago and it brought up memories of the death of my son which ushered me into a dark night of the soul. The sun rose again on my life and it will for all these dear people I love who are now grieving. I’ve learned that life tends to come in cycles; sunshiny days won’t last indefinitely. Storms come, night descends, and dark clouds of trial or tragedy may obscure our view. But with every dark night there is promise of a dawn.
Light is Truth, Light is Christ
I think of words from Hymn #1: “The morning breaks, the shadows flee … The clouds of error disappear before the rays of truth divine.” Erroneous thinking about life’s happenings can cloud our thinking, keeping us in the dark. However, the truth brings dawn’s light. I learn over and over again that the truth that brings unfailing light into my life is truth concerning the Savior and his atonement. In D&C 11:11 the Savior says, “I am the light which shineth in darkness.”
In D&C 88:7 we read, “Which truth shineth. This is the light of Christ. As also he is in the sun, and the light of the sun, and the power thereof by which it was made. Verse 11 says, “And the light which shineth, which giveth you light, is through him who enlighteneth your eyes, which is the same light that quickeneth your understandings; Which light proceedeth forth from the presence of God to fill the immensity of space.”
No wonder I yearn for the dawn; no wonder I bask in the warmth of the sun’s rays; no wonder everything good in life can be compared to light, everything evil to darkness. I was born with the light of Christ; consequently I yearn to fill my life with that light. And since I’ve made covenants to take upon myself His name and always remember Him, any moment without His light is hard to bear.
Scriptural Formula to Dispel the Darkness of the Soul
Much of the darkness we struggled with is brought on by “inner enemies of the soul” – such as discouragement. I have long believed that the war stories in the Book of Mormon have application to inner battles against the darkness of the soul, and consequently would help us bring dawn’s light back. For instance, in the story of Helaman’s great battles to defend the Nephites against their Lamanite enemies, we come to a place where they were not receiving the provisions and additional strength to their forces that they badly needed. Helaman’s response provides me with an exact formula to follow.
In Alma 58:9-12 we read, “The cause why they did not send more strength unto us, we knew not; therefore we were grieved and also filled with fear … Therefore we did pour out our whole souls in prayer to God, that he would strengthen us and deliver us out of the hands of our enemies, yea, and also give us strength … Yea, and it came to pass that the Lord our God did visit us with assurance that he would deliver us; yea, insomuch that he did speak peace to our souls, and did grant unto us great faith, and did cause us that we should hope for our deliverance in him. And we did take courage … and were fixed with a determination to conquer our enemies.”
Their dark night ended through the prayer of faith; their dawn came with assurance from the Lord.
Let’s look at this scripture more closely. First, Helaman said that not knowing the cause … grieved them and filled them with fear. Grief, fear, and ignorance are such common causes of darkness in our lives. Where did these scriptural heroes turn? They poured out their whole souls in prayer for strength and deliverance. I look back over my life; how many times can I say that I have poured out my whole soul in prayer? Mostly when the night has been dark, when the dawn seemed far away, when I was totally humbled, totally aware that the Lord was my only source of comfort or peace. When an untimely death shatters our hearts we tend to learn more about this kind of prayer. Now, in the scripture above, notice that the Lord did not instantly deliver Helaman and his troops, but He gave them the assurance that he would deliver them. This assurance was all they needed. It brought them peace, faith, hope, courage, and a fixed determination to conquer.
The Lord’s Promises Are Sure
The Lord’s assurance means it is as good as done. God never lies. His promises are sure. And we can put our names on scriptural promises and claim them for ourselves because the Lord says, “What I say unto one I say unto all” (D&C 93:49). Doubt and fear flee in the face of His assurance that the dawn is coming. And even though his timetable may be very different from ours, His dawns are never late.
Recently, in Relief Society, we sang the hymn “Sweet Is the Work.” The following words stood out to me: “My heart shall triumph in the Lord …. My inward foes shall all be slain, Nor Satan break my peace again.” The Lord promises over and over that in his strength, with His light we can triumph over the darkness of the soul. Which reminds me of words in another favorite hymn: “The Lord is my light, the Lord is my strength. I know in His might, I’ll conquer at length” (Hymn # 89). Conquering has been for me, not a one-time event, but more like a lifetime quest, a lifetime process. The law of opposition is in full effect, and we never seem to run out of inner enemies to conquer, or dark nights that leave us yearning for the light of dawn.
Sorrow Can Lead Us to the Light
One of Deanna Edward’s songs teaches us that to avoid sorrow, we’d “have to take the loving out of life.” I accept the necessity of experiencing the bitter in order that I might prize the sweet. When Adam and Eve left the Garden of Eden, Eve said, “It is better for us to pass through sorrow …” There could be no sweet reunions without sad partings. There could be no resurrection without death. Joy and sorrow are so many times flip sides of the same coin, and choosing only one side of the coin is not an option. One of life’s sweetest discoveries for me has been that sorrow that leads us to a closer relationship with the Savior can be among life’s brightest sunrises. Alma 28:14 tells us, “And thus we see the great reason of sorrow, and also of rejoicing – sorrow because of death and destruction among men, and joy because of the light of Christ unto life.” Every day we turn to Him we renew our hope of the eternal sunrise of His light and love.